Thursday, March 20, 2008

I have two little humans inside of me!

The babies are kicking a lot. It is the most amazing thing I have ever felt. I can't even describe how our outlook on life has changed, and the babies are not even here yet.

My husband I watched Law and Order: Special Victims Unit Tuesday night. Detective Stabler's wife was pregnant and she was in a car accident with Oliva (Stabler's partner). She was trapped in the car, in and out of consciousness and her water broke. The next 10 minutes the show focused on the emergency personnel cutting her out of the car while Oliva stabilized her neck, gave her an IV and kept her calm and awake. The baby was coming, that's all she could keep saying. During those 10 minutes my husband and I had tears running down our face. I know it's only a TV show but all I could do was think about that baby and then my babies. I just held my stomach as my little ones were kicking each other. It made us realize how much these babies are going to depend on us, or I should say, already depend on us. It’s exciting and very scary at the same time. It also made us realize how much we love the twins and they aren’t even born yet.

I love it when the twins move around and kick me or kick each other. I stop what I am doing and rub my stomach and talk to them.  I get so distracted by their movements. Then I realize how much they need me and it’s the most amazing feeling. What a miracle that I have two little babies growing inside me. 

Do you have a pet? You know how it feels to know that they are so dependent on you to take care of them? And then you hear about how people abuse animals and your heart breaks because you realize those animals are helpless. Take that feeling and multiply it by a thousand more. I know that is  a weird comparison but that’s kind of how I feel. These babies need me to take care of my body so they are healthy and survive. Then I start thinking about what it’s going to be like when they are born. Wow, what a reality check. And to think that anybody can have a child. Eesh!

I’m rambling now but I am just so amazed by being pregnant at this point. Every time they are moving around I feel blessed, full of love and just amazed at the little miracles kicking each other in me. 

4 comments:

Harmony said...

i can't even imagine how thrilled you are! i am so excited for you and your husband! i know how excited you must be to meet your beautiful babies! i can not wait to have children and experience that miracle and joy you are- congratulations again!

Sarah said...

Everytime I read one of your posts, I just get SO happy for you. Pregnancy can be tough, but it truly is amazing! Enjoy every second of it, because you'll look back and think how it just flew by. :) Happy Easter!

Erin said...

How awesome. I can't even imagine how cool and amazing that must feel, especially when you've been wanting this for so long.

Audra said...

I had to quite watching shows like that when I was pregnant... It was just too emotionally taxing (not to mention expensive since it necessitates the use of hundreds of Kleenex!!)Glad things are going well!